I feel like i dont want to move on and let go
I know what happens and what will happen if i dont let go, and i feel like i can let go, but i also feel like i dont really want to let go.
A single word from her can make it all go away
Happens every time. A single word from her can make all the mental pain just go away so easily.
I found what i needed even though it seemed like i didnt
I thought that i was just wasting time, i wasn't having fun, i wasn't really doing anything, and i felt that it was all just a big waste of time and that there are other places id rather be, and then i realized! I just learned an important lesson - I was trying to live someone else's life, someone else's dream, it wasn't my own! That understanding... Read more
Its so easier to dive into the negative
Its so much easier to let the negative thoughts roll without control rather than the good ones. Maybe its our nature, maybe its the way we grow up and this society, but how easy is it to think about the bad, to come up with bad stories in your mind and situations and conversations, rather than good ones. Its almost as if it happens by itself, the ... Read more
Im going back and for with this person
Its like a swing, i distance myself from them, then i swing back and try and get closer. Everytime its the same, i say this is it, that im not doing this again, and then it happens agains. Do i not have the power to actually do it, or maybe i dont have the will? I want to end this, but i find myself continuosly swinging right back into it.
I did something that i though would bring me happiness
I thought this would bring me happiness, that if i lived this, dream basically, that i would be happy, but that didnt happen. I realize now that this isnt my dream, its A dream, someone else found thier answers in life by doing this, it worked for that person, but it didnt work for me. I need to find my own way, but at least i realize that i have... Read more
We make mistakes that we just cant seem to learn from
Mistakes happen, and they will continue to happen, we just need to learn from them and make sure that the same ones don't happen again. But what if we cant learn from them? We end up making the same mistakes again and again, even if they are separated by years. And only after we make the same mistake do we realize how far back we are compared to ... Read more
We assume the worst
It has become a habit for people to assume the worst. They could see a portion of an article, a sentence really, and from just that alone come up with a whole story as to what actually happened, based on that one sentence alone. Usually, the story they come up with is not a good one, especially if it concerns themselves. If it has to do with them,... Read more
Sometimes i just cant understand people
Sometimes people ask me questions that just stop me right there, and i just don't have an answer to. Such questions that i don't understand why people would ask, or things they say.. I wont go in to specifics, but i just don't understand sometimes, these things just leave me speechless!
Kavanaugh or Ford?
Who do you believe?
what do people fight for?
When people go to war, what are they fighting for? More power? Money? Survival? Maybe they are just fighting for the fight itself. I think this world is bleeding, and we are the cause of its wounds. We aren't allowing it heal, and we are damaging it more and more, every day.
There must be a balance
Loneliness at times seems amazing, it seems exactly what you you think you want, to the point where you just want to leave everything behind and to go out on a quest to find ultimate loneliness. Then, when you do it and you actually find that loneliness, you learn that its not what you want at all and that you just feel sad and alone. Stories like... Read more