I am worried about the future of the people closest to me.
Not sure why but I have moments of sudden stress and pressure as if I am about to do something that will cause a lot of pain to some people in my life.
This does eventually pass, but even at the moment it's something I am worried about, even when I don't realize it or think about it, it's there.
I think that I am very dedicated to what I believe in and that if it's something that I really want, I will do what is needed for it.
With that said, I don't know if being a parent is what I want.
It's hard to say if you will be a good parent when you don't know if you even want to be a parent.
But, if I do decide that I will want to be a parent and actually do have kids, I believe that they will be my first priority over everything else. That I will devote everything I have so that they will have a better childhood than I did, and a better life than I did.
There is a lot of growing that I will need to do first before I can become a parent, or even think about defining myself as a good parent.
But if and when that moment comes, I will just do the very best I can.
Fixing the planet it destroyed.
For the past few years, there has been more and more talk about saving the planet, going eco-friendly, and global warming.
These topics are not new, but in recent years there has been increasing awareness of them.
Though these topics are not new and so many people, countries, and world leaders are talking about it and are discussing ways of improving the situation, the issue continues.
A big problem I see is that people are waiting for leaders and governments to find solutions. To make new rules and to solve the problem.
This though is not an approach that has worked until now, and I see no reason why it would work in the future either.
There is no reason why we all should not do our best to solve these issues in our personal life without waiting for others to tell us to do so or make us.
There are countless options, countless alternatives, and countless ways we all, individually, can help this planet, but most of us choose to wait for the people in charge to make these decisions for us.
Many countries have stopped using plastic bags in supermarkets. Instead, they either give paper bags or fabric bags.
This wasn't the choice of the people, it was decided by the governments, but, there was nothing that prevented people from taking this step on their own, without there needing to be a rule for it.
Some places allow the usage of plastic bags for a small price. For every plastic bag used in a supermarket, shoppers have to pay a few cents.
Of course, this has left room for people to continue to use plastic bags, even though they cost money now.
We as humans should not have to wait for these changes to come from leaders. We should be making these changes ourselves.
Close your eyes, take a deep breath, and let it all out slowly.
Focus on your breath, follow it in and out.
Do this for a few minutes and really try to focus on nothing but the breath.
This can be hard, but the more you do it, the better you get at clearing your mind.
This can help calm your mind and body and help you stay in the present moment, rather than letting your mind wander off to places you may not want it to wander to.
A short session throughout the day is better than no session at all.
It's very easy to give in to the temptation of not doing it, even though it's a pretty simple task of just sitting for a few minutes, we can still find every excuse to not do it, and sometimes we just don't feel like doing it, even though we really want to and need it.
Instead, the moment you remember or think about it, go do it, even if it's just a few minutes. Of course, if it's possible, if not then try to do it as soon as you can rather than saying that you will do it later or before bed, because, you know you will probably have a reason not to do it.
Even short sessions can be great, and they can encourage us to go for longer next time, or to find more time for it throughout the day, leading to multiple sessions, and just more time meditating.
I like writing. Not stories or anything that people will ever read, actually, not even I read what I write.
Writing things down, like my thoughts, helps me think better. It helps slow my thoughts down rather than allowing them to race.
This is a technique I use a lot for my work when I have a difficult puzzle to solve, or when I just need to make a thought process clearer and understand things better.
Without writing, my mind will just race through the thoughts, and as much as I try to slow it down, I cannot.
Writing helps me do this, it forces me to slow down because I cannot write as fast as I think, which means that my thought process will be much slower.
This allows me to actually understand each thought that crosses my mind, each solution I think of for solving an issue is actually thought of and contemplated, rather than just moving on to the next thing.
This has helped me countless times in work and in my personal life, and even though I do love writing and it really helps, I do not like the waste of paper. I do not like the environmental impact it has.
Especially since I almost never go back and read what I write down. So the moment it goes on the paper, it's gone, it will end up in the garbage, and that is just a waste.
The reason I don't read it is that I am just doing it for the effect it has on my thinking process, slowing me down and allowing me to better think and process things. Other than that, it doesn't matter to me if the text disappears after I write it.
This is where the dry erase board comes in.
I can't say that I know how ecologically friendly dry erase boards are, because I do not, but I do know that I am not ok with deforestation and the amount of paper that is wasted and as a result, the number of trees that are killed for nothing.
So, instead of writing on paper, I decided to write on a dry erase board.
This has been a game-changer for me as it's also much easier for me to write on a dry erase board, I can also write whatever I want and be sure that no one will ever read it (if that was something that I worried about).
I have a few small boards and a bigger board for the more intense thoughts I need to write down. When I fill up the board, I just erase it and continue on with the thoughts. Very simple.
All the benefits of writing, just without the paper and without the waste.
So my recommendation is to start writing down your thoughts as you are thinking them, you will be surprised how much this can help you think more clearly. And, to use a dry erase board, even a small one will do (but get a small marker!).
If you are looking for positive points of view and perspectives on life, or just want to read a very uplifting and positive book, this is the one.
Initially, the story may seem like a sad one since it's written by a dying professor, so of course, there are some bittersweet moments while reading it.
But once you start, you will very quickly understand that this is not at all a sad story about death, rather, it's about life and how to live it to the fullest. It's a motivating story about how we can all choose to look at the better parts of every situation life presents us with, to see the positive in all the challenges and difficulties throughout life.
This is how Randy has chosen to live his life, and in this book, he demonstrates how it is possible to look at the positive sides of even the worst times in life.
This really is one of the better books I have read, it helped fill me up with positivity, motivation, and the inspiration I needed for getting through tough times in my life.
I have started to notice that when someone disagrees with me or says something that is the opposite of what my answer is, I will instinctively say no.
The moment I finished saying no, I instantly notice that I had just done it again, I reacted instantly without really thinking.
When people actually prove me wrong, sometimes I will try to find my way around it to prove that, at the very least, I was not wrong and that both options are possible.
I do try and stop this or at least reduce this as much as I can, but so far I only notice myself doing this after I already failed to admit I am wrong.
I have quite the selection, not of things I said that were negative or bad towards someone, but just things that contributed to my awkwardness, as this happens almost on a daily basis.
Most recently was when I was saying goodbye to a receptionist at a gym, she said see you on Monday, and instead of just saying something like "see you", because I knew I would see her on Monday, or anything else that made sense, I said, "why Monday?".
The main quality all my friends have in common is that they are all actual friends.
I don't have many friends, just a few.
I'm not talking about the people I know, say hi to, or see often, those I have a lot of, but those aren't the ones I would necessarily consider to be my good friends.
My good friends are the ones that, even if months go by without us talking, we will continue being friends as if no time has passed at all.
The ones that, whether they know me best or not, respect me and are there for me, even if we don't agree on things.
The ones that I can share things with and that they share things with me.
I don't need or really care if I have many friends or not, I can get by perfectly with just a few of them, a few really good friends.
One good friend is better than 10 not-so-great friends.