I would change my lack of courage that has and still is preventing me from living my dream.
I can't help but also mention one more thing that I would change about myself. My fear of regret.
I have to mention this because I feel that my lack of courage and my fear of regret go hand in hand.
I lack the courage to do what I feel is correct because I feel an enormous sense of fear, a fear of regret. When I think about what consequences decisions will have on my life and others, specifically, what I am letting go of and what others are losing, I can't help but fear the regret that I could feel later on down the road if I ever decide that what I chose was wrong and that I want what I had back. Because, I may not be able to get it back, and if I did, it probably won't be the same as it was.
I lack the courage to get past this fear, I lack the courage to accept my possible regret because there will be regret in any big choice we make, any life-changing choice will eventually lead us down a road that will have at least some amount of regret. How much? We don't know. When? We don't know that either. But the road is not only filled with regret, not if the choice we made is truly what we want in life.
This is what I believe, though, I understand it's easier said than done, hence why I would change this about myself because I have not yet found a way to do it. It is a work in progress.