Not in terms of being a famous singer or actor, but i think i would like to be known, to have a presence in the world.
Its a difficult thought to accept that once you're gone, the world will forget you, so i would like to live my life in a way that i will not be forgotten so easily.
Nope, at the time of my breakups I probably would have answered yes to this, but in reality, after getting over them, I don't think I actually have someone I think "got away", what ended ended and was probably for the better.
But it really depends on when you ask yourself this question. If you are asking it right after a breakup, or, when someone you want doesn't want you back, you may consider them the as ones that got away, but maybe after a while, after you feel better about it, you will start to understand that it was only temporary.
Also, once you are actually in a relationship with someone you want to be with and love, you may not consider anyone "the one that got away" since you are happy (assuming you are happy in the relationship).
I don't know what age i was, but i remember it very well. There were commercials on TV about a coin collection book where you would put each states coin in it, and as a little kid i thought that was pretty cool, so i asked my parents if i could have it.
This was, from what i remember, a while before my birthday, and i did not mean for them to get it for me as my birthday present. I may have not even asked them for it but just really liked it, i can't really remember.
My birthday came along, they sat me down on the couch, getting me ready for my gift, and i remember being so excited about the present i was about to get, about playing with whatever the toy was going to be for hours.
When they gave me the wrapped gift, it was quite large.
I opened it, and shockingly it was not a toy, it was a book..
That was also the first time i remember experiencing disappointment, i was so excited about the toy i thought i was going to get, and ended up getting a book.
It was also the first time i had to pretend to like something i didnt and to be happy, because, even though i wanted it, it was not the gift i was expecting, i was disappointed but didnt want to show it.
So, i said thank you and pretended to be excited about it. It wasnt a bad gift, i did ask for it (as far as i can remember at least), and i did collect coins and use it, so not bad at all.
It depends how i meet them. If i just meet them randomly by chance, then its fine because i can just leave and have no obligation to speak with them or develop a conversation since we didn't meet intentionally, but if its an arranged meeting, such as a friend tells says let's go somewhere and these other people will be there too, then i feel very anxious because then the meeting is intentional and there is a social standard of talking and getting to know people you intentionally meet.
I'm not a very social person, i am not able to open up and be talkative with people i don't know, so when i have to go and meet people i just don't really have much to say, so its an awkward situation, and this causes me to be anxious about meeting them in the first place.
It also depends on the person though, some people i can get along with very easily from the start and find it easy to open up to and actually find a topic of conversation with, but the initial feeling is still anxiety.
Watching videos of people who live in forests in places like norway.
That is the kind of life that i want to live, a small house in a forest, away from the city and everyday life, away from the standards of society.
So when i see other people living that life, the life i want to live, i do of course get jealous, but i also get very motivated and inspired to make that kind of life a reality, and to not just spend my life dreaming about it.
When i was traveling, i had complete freedom, though i did make quit a few mistakes along the way and did a few things things that if i was in a better state of mind i probably wouldn't have, it was still one of the best times i ever had.
Being free to go where ever you want, to do what ever you want, however and for as long as you want is just a feeling that is hard to beat, there is nothing quit like it, and it can be overwhelming at times since i believe that in todays society we are not used to that kind of life, to that level of freedom.
That is the freedom that i aim for in my life, to make that phase more than just a phase.
I'm not afraid of either.
I aim for success, which can come in many forms, and I understand that along the way to success there may be many failures, I am not afraid or worried about them because I understand that each failure is an opportunity to learn something that I apparently did not know very well or at all.
Failures for me are part of the success.
I don't know if in order to understand happiness you must experience and understand pain and suffering.
I don't know if the contrast between the two is a requirement, but i do believe that the contrast can emphasis happiness and suffering to a greater extent.
Yes, walking alone in nature.
It doesn't matter what state i am in when i start, i could be furious, angry and upset, or just extremely stressed, the moment i start walking it all clears up.
The thoughts are all still there, but i am calm and am able to understand these thoughts and come to better conclusions.
The negative feelings just go away and i am left with a sort of peace i feel only while i am alone in nature.
Right now i dont feel fulfilled, i feel as if i am wasting my time and life by living in a way that i do not enjoy and do not want to live.
So if i were to die tonight, i would probably not feel fulfilled.
