It was more of a feeling rather than actually being lost.
It was just a time that felt as if nothing was working out in life.
I wasn't living the life that had always been my goal, even though I had every option to do so, and I just felt stuck in the situation I was in.
I worked for years on projects that didn't seem to result in anything.
Relationships were going nowhere.
It all just seemed as if nothing was working out.
It took me quite a bit of time to get out of it and to find my motivation again.
Once I took a few deep breaths and cleared my mind a little bit from the disappointment and self-pity, I was able to get back on track and make things better.
The biggest pain and fear was the thought that I had just wasted so much time, so many years, and this thought depleted all and any motivation I had to continue with anything.
Once I was able to understand that it's never too late, I was able to pick myself up and continue on towards my goals.
This though did take some time, because as easy as saying it's never too late is, actually believing it is not so easy.
While visiting some friends, two of them that are in a relationship had an argument in front of us all. The argument could have ended quickly as just a disagreement, but instead it ended in a very strange way.
It ended when the girlfriend started crying and the boyfriend started laughing at her about her crying..
The part that I didn't understand was that everyone that was there seemed to be fine with it, as if its just ok, and they even supported him while she went to another room to cry.
I was just sitting there the whole time thinking to myself, what the hell?..
To live my dreams the best I can, and to not let momentary distractions blind me and take me away from the path that I am on.
My father, before he died, so that i would be able to actually know what he was thinking, why he was doing the things he did, and if he actually did love us.
To know also what was true from all of the stories he told us.
And to just get to understand this man who is a mystery.
Their actions.
Global warming.
Locking their doors at night (and when they leave home!).
Other drivers on the street (we may be amazing drivers, but others may not be!).
Wasting time.
I am worried about the future of the people closest to me.
Not sure why but I have moments of sudden stress and pressure as if I am about to do something that will cause a lot of pain to some people in my life.
This does eventually pass, but even at the moment it's something I am worried about, even when I don't realize it or think about it, it's there.
The main quality all my friends have in common is that they are all actual friends.
I don't have many friends, just a few.
I'm not talking about the people I know, say hi to, or see often, those I have a lot of, but those aren't the ones I would necessarily consider to be my good friends.
My good friends are the ones that, even if months go by without us talking, we will continue being friends as if no time has passed at all.
The ones that, whether they know me best or not, respect me and are there for me, even if we don't agree on things.
The ones that I can share things with and that they share things with me.
I don't need or really care if I have many friends or not, I can get by perfectly with just a few of them, a few really good friends.
One good friend is better than 10 not-so-great friends.
I have quite the selection, not of things I said that were negative or bad towards someone, but just things that contributed to my awkwardness, as this happens almost on a daily basis.
Most recently was when I was saying goodbye to a receptionist at a gym, she said see you on Monday, and instead of just saying something like "see you", because I knew I would see her on Monday, or anything else that made sense, I said, "why Monday?".
Fixing the planet it destroyed.
For the past few years, there has been more and more talk about saving the planet, going eco-friendly, and global warming.
These topics are not new, but in recent years there has been increasing awareness of them.
Though these topics are not new and so many people, countries, and world leaders are talking about it and are discussing ways of improving the situation, the issue continues.
A big problem I see is that people are waiting for leaders and governments to find solutions. To make new rules and to solve the problem.
This though is not an approach that has worked until now, and I see no reason why it would work in the future either.
There is no reason why we all should not do our best to solve these issues in our personal life without waiting for others to tell us to do so or make us.
There are countless options, countless alternatives, and countless ways we all, individually, can help this planet, but most of us choose to wait for the people in charge to make these decisions for us.
Many countries have stopped using plastic bags in supermarkets. Instead, they either give paper bags or fabric bags.
This wasn't the choice of the people, it was decided by the governments, but, there was nothing that prevented people from taking this step on their own, without there needing to be a rule for it.
Some places allow the usage of plastic bags for a small price. For every plastic bag used in a supermarket, shoppers have to pay a few cents.
Of course, this has left room for people to continue to use plastic bags, even though they cost money now.
We as humans should not have to wait for these changes to come from leaders. We should be making these changes ourselves.
