Their actions.
Global warming.
Locking their doors at night (and when they leave home!).
Other drivers on the street (we may be amazing drivers, but others may not be!).
Wasting time.
While visiting some friends, two of them that are in a relationship had an argument in front of us all. The argument could have ended quickly as just a disagreement, but instead it ended in a very strange way.
It ended when the girlfriend started crying and the boyfriend started laughing at her about her crying..
The part that I didn't understand was that everyone that was there seemed to be fine with it, as if its just ok, and they even supported him while she went to another room to cry.
I was just sitting there the whole time thinking to myself, what the hell?..
It was more of a feeling rather than actually being lost.
It was just a time that felt as if nothing was working out in life.
I wasn't living the life that had always been my goal, even though I had every option to do so, and I just felt stuck in the situation I was in.
I worked for years on projects that didn't seem to result in anything.
Relationships were going nowhere.
It all just seemed as if nothing was working out.
It took me quite a bit of time to get out of it and to find my motivation again.
Once I took a few deep breaths and cleared my mind a little bit from the disappointment and self-pity, I was able to get back on track and make things better.
The biggest pain and fear was the thought that I had just wasted so much time, so many years, and this thought depleted all and any motivation I had to continue with anything.
Once I was able to understand that it's never too late, I was able to pick myself up and continue on towards my goals.
This though did take some time, because as easy as saying it's never too late is, actually believing it is not so easy.
My father, before he died, so that i would be able to actually know what he was thinking, why he was doing the things he did, and if he actually did love us.
To know also what was true from all of the stories he told us.
And to just get to understand this man who is a mystery.
Its something that i already thought about a few times, but it sort of re-entered my brain again today.
We are tiny, almost nothing to the universe, but we take everything so seriously as if every tiny mistake is going to end it all.
Thinking about it just puts things into perspective.
It makes the small and insignificant annoyances of daily life seem tiny and unimportant, as they usually really are. We just inflate everything to be way bigger than they actually are.
To live my dreams the best I can, and to not let momentary distractions blind me and take me away from the path that I am on.
Creating habits.
When I want to start something new, I always find it extremely difficult to make a habit out of what ever it is that I want to start doing.
If I want to start training with a workout program, I will either need someone to train with me because this will force me to actually do it since someone else is relying on me, or I will need someone else to write the training program because if I write it I wont mind not doing it, but if someone else went through the trouble of writing it for me, I would do it out of respect for that person.
Not as much as I should, but it's tough.
It's easy to say the correct things, or, at least the things you feel are correct.
Doing them though is a completely different story.
The forest.
Its calming, its the one place i can go to reduce stress.
